Recently
I've been feeling really down and lonely recently :'(
I don't know why i felt this way..
My heart had this weird feeling that i can't even explain how does it really feel
I feel as everything around me want to knock me down
Each night i cried myself to sleep
Wake up with swollen eyes
I feel like no one understand me
Keep comparing me with someone better than me
Why? Why would you all do that?
Wouldn't it be a boring world if everyone is the same?
Maybe this time i'm at the bottom
but surely next time i will be on the top
I'll make you all speechless
I hope that i get a second chance to do better
I'll promise i won't let it go waste this time
I'll keep my promise, believe in myself that i can do it
cause nothing is IMPOSSIBLE, the word itself says I'M POSSIBLE
Let God answer all my prayers and lead me to a better life, better world, becoming better person
Amen
Today lu~
After a few more window shopping we decided to go home..
Headache all the way home..haiz
The only truth you should know
Will you stay awhile with me?
Let us play the truth or dare game
Where i will find out most of the truth from you
but you will never find the truth from me
Because i will always choose the dare
But if i choose the truth
the answer will always be a lie
Because the truth is too cruel for us to know
Unless if you ask me about my true feeling towards you
The answer will always from the bottom of my heart
Because it is the only question where i can answer honestly
And the answer will always be
" I love you for who you are, my dear"
In a night like this
My latest photo..
The Girl & Her Crown
Here's a few picture of me wearing my crown that i got last year..
Around Tamparuli
Today i decided to go 'tamu' with my aunt since i got nothing to do..
Another update~
Last Friday we went out to watch Burlesque at Centre Point
Wait for me Burlesque♥
Well, tomorrow is the outing day and the greatest thing is we will be watching Burlesque!!
Can't wait to watch t after i watched the official trailer..
It's so exiting!! Pretty girls, flashy outfits, vogue makeup, powerful dance, lots of song and pretty boys..
Also, i will be meeting with my childhood friends..yay ^_^
Btw, here are some of the official picture from Burlesque
Well, that's for today!
Our plan to go to library today is a total failure..
We didn't even managed to step our foot outside the house!
Well maybe i have but only a walk to my cousin's house to fetch her..
What a waste~
But our day didn't end that badly though..
At my cousin's house, well we kindda lost track of the time
and other difficulties that's why our plan was ruined..
Feeling that our plan would not worked out,
we decided to spend our time watching comedy series!!
Laughing all day long doesn't seem so bad..haha
And the great thing is my aunt keep bringing us tons of food♥
Lucky for us that part of our family have the 'stay in shape" gene despite all the food we consume..
So we didn't have much worry when facing the weight scale..
And here i am facing the pc with kopiko, cakes, chocolate & nuts
even though it hasn't been 30mins after dinner..
So that's all for today's update! See you soon..
*Gosh, i still need to find my green t-shirt for tomorrow >.<
now where did i put it?? Geez =.="
Update!
Well, yesterday was my dear cousin birthday and since we are far apart i couldn't give him a gift..
So i just wished him and send a wishing picture which i made it by myself..
I felt so relieved when he said he like it a lot and told me to make another one for his birthday next year..
The picture is just a simple one though..
So, here it is >>>
Oh no!
What have happened to my blog?
I've abandoned it for such a long time..haiz//
But i promise to update it ASAP!
Tired, so tired~
When will i get a good night sleep?
This holiday season really tighten up my schedule..
Partying here and there..
Skipping my beauty sleep..
All these really taking away my energy..
And i have to catch up my K-drama..
I hope it will over soon, soon...
Hope to get a good night sleep tonight!
Wohoo~
Finally, my circle lens arrived yesterday!!
Yipee.. This time i buy 2 pairs..
One is Kira Kira Green which has a great color..
And the other one is Candy Black which is adorable!!
Maybe will dye my hair in Ash Brown tomorrow..Ngeehh~
Btw, sorry for not updating my blog lately..
I have a bit of health problem which require me to be hospitalized..
But don't worry, i'm back and feeling super fine now!! Yeeha~
Ow,GTG.. I'm going S-H-O-P-P-I-N-G now!! Ngeehh~
After a long wait..
Finally, 16th December 2010..
I've been waiting for this date and it's already here..
That mean, I'm free from my life as a high school girl, yay!
Of course, high school life is so much fun..
But life must go on..
A new journey have to be made soon..
Congratulation to all the pre-U students!!
I definitely will be missing all the memories in SMKT~
Just 3 more steps and i'm free~
3 more papers to go and i will be free!
Today will be facing with a tough paper, Mathematics T II..
Hope that i can passed this one..
Tomorrow will be dealing with Bahasa Malaysia I, which i hope to get A..
And my last paper will be on Thursday, Chemistry I...
I can't wait for Thursday!!!
At last, i'm going to be free, free from my life as a pre-U student..
Holiday season..
It's almost Christmas, the meaningful celebration for Christian..
Although it's still Advent but i surely can already hear the Christmas carols..
Those sweet voices singing really brightens up this holidays season..
Here on my hometown, the weather getting colder these few days..
But there is no hope for snowing
knowing that Malaysia doesn't have 4 seasons..
Geez, how i wish i can wear those mitten, scarf and snow cap in this season
Building snowman and playing snowball..
I want that! haha~ Well, i can still see it overseas but when??
I want a real snow.. Not some artificial one..
Let's hope i can go overseas someday..
I'm aiming for Japan and Korea!!!
What has the world turned into?
People attempted suicide just because of break up..
People killing other people because of power..
People leaving their family because of selfishness..
People suffering because of war..
Just how did it turn out to be this way?
We all should appreciate our life that given by God himself..
We should paint our life with various beautiful colors..
Not with hatred, darkness, pain and selfishness
or even negative thought..
We live only once..
Of course it's a fact that all people will eventually die someday..
But should we suffer while we living?
Should we be negative while living?
The answer is no!
When we suffer in life, we always said that it was our fate to suffer in our life..
But don't you think we can change our painful fate to a better one by working a little bit harder?
If you're not dare to try harder,
then you are a FAILURE from the start..
As for me, i am changing myself to a better person..
I want to enjoy my life while i still live..
Although i experienced hatred, pain and all the negative things,
i still trying harder to received happiness and warmth in my life..
YOU ARE WHAT YOU ARE!
THE ONLY PERSON THAT CAN CHANGE YOU IS YOURSELF!
So, appreciate your life more..
Because it is the most precious gift that God give to mankind..
Hope
Each day i woke up with a hope to feel happiness in life
the tears from last night has dried up
and a chance to feel happiness will not be taken lightly
i have to end my misery
loving others is easy but receiving the same thing is a different thing
when sadness seems to control my life
music will always be my comforter
singing my heart out
forgetting all the things that sadden me
sometimes i cried myself to sleep
soaking my eyes with liters of tears
waking up with awful face
i don't care as long as i can swept away the sadness in me
but life doesn't always that awful
sometimes warmth will surround you
giving all the love and happiness you needed
Beautiful pictures are developed from negatives in a dark room
so if you see darkness in your life
be reassured that a beautiful picture is being prepared
